After Bad Memories I Had

Hai.

Yesterday I made a promise to myself, tapi aku sendiri yang mungkir. Aku dah janji tak akan sakit kan lagi hati dengan benda remeh. Tak akan mudah menerima atau terjatuh perasaan, akhirnya aku sendiri tersungkur ke jalan yang tak ada penamat.

Ladies, don’t trust guys.

Mat lutffi sendiri pernah cakap dekat aku. “I am a guy and I don’t trust myself.” Hm actually Mat Luthfi tak cakap direct dekat aku. Dia tak whatsapp pun.Dia Cuma tulis dekat buku dia. Aku baca. Aku suka kejujuran dia. Andai kata Mat Luthfi terjumpa entry ni, aku nak dia tahu yang aku Cuma suka KEJUJURAN dia sahaja. Maceh.

Pada akhir semester lepas, aku ingin berkongsi sedikit keterujaan aku terhadap salah satu junior di kampus politeknik. Keterujaan yang sementara. Well, it’s quite embarrassing to confess that I had my first crush which is MY JUNIOR.

Ok, I was so popular back then. HAHAHAHA tipu je. Back to the story, he has the look that every girls want. He is bright, tall, handsome and that is all a naïve girl like me would look into in the criteria list.  I am not that naïve actually but i don’t know man…

Macam yang aku cakap, It was pada akhir semester lepas. After I’m finished study. Everythings was changed. You know what I mean. Well, aku bawa haluan aku sendiri dan cuba untuk relaks and hope the relationship will be okay. But I am wrong.  A KIDDO VS A LADY. I cant even controlled whatever he want to do because at that age, I am also playing a game. So I just sit and follow his game. Berani gila NATANG ni sebab pasang scandal2x behind the scene, lastly kantoi. Tapi tak mengaku.

Ummm I don’t have a problem with that actually but, aku macam sedih sikit sebab mungkir janji dekat diri sendiri. I feel BAD at first, yalaa.. what supposed to be is not supposed to be. Kalau aku tak degil dengar nasihat kawan-kawan yang menghalang kaw-kaw supaya aku tak tersungkur kejalan mesti aku dapat award NO BOYFRIEND NO PROBLEM. But atleast keputusan untuk meninggalkan that kiddo is the best I ever made kot. Sebab kalau tak mesti at night yang my parents buat OPEN HOUSE tu aku jemput dia, and aku tak akan pedulikan Aiman langsung.

Alhamdulillah for now.

Tok, I am doing well here. Everything is fine and I am happy now. Aiman is good. He is so wonderful. He also called me Wonder Nyawa.  I am no longer worry about being sad, sick, depressed, traumatised, or infected by ground germs through bare foot. Hehe. Insha ALLAH kalau tak ada aral, end of this month I will come there to see you. Semoga tok tenang dekat sana. Walaupun dah 2 tahun tok tak ada, tak pernah sesaat pun tok hilang dari kotak ingatan .Al-fatihah-

Xoxo